In August of 2008, I was unemployed and down on my luck. Through a twist of fate and the hand of God, I met Lisa through our children’s girl scout trip. While our kids played at her house, we talked about her book blog and she got me started on a great adventure. That evening, I started this blog and began to write about books, television, movies, and just random stories about myself and my twin daughters. At that time, I was heartbroken and had not only lost my job, but lost the love of my life. In all honesty, I still haven’t gotten over that relationship and, to this date, I’ve only dated sporadically since then. He’s gone and married now.
I found that my blog gave me a great creative outlook to learn all about the technical side of blogging including web design and layout. I also read and read. In one year I read 150 books! My mind was racing with creativity. I eventually found employment and my blogging started to lessen. Being full time employed along with raising twin daughters (being a single mother nonetheless) left me little time to read and write.
In 2010, I got a much improved career role. This job took me to working until 8-9pm on many, if not most, nights. During my 4 years of working there, I was just simply too wiped out to keep up my blog. But, I kept the site active for those who were looking for a book review of a certain book that I may have written. I’ve had over 2 million hits on the website since 2008 and that is something, I imagine, that I should be proud of.
Now it’s 2014 and I find myself without a job again. In many ways, I believe that the professional parting of ways was unfair and that I performed my position with great accuracy. In other ways, I think that my mental wellbeing was beginning to suffer and it was a blessing in disguise. You see, that position did nothing but add to my anxiety. I feel ashamed to admit it. Truthfully, It’s been on my mind that I need to secure a good position and make my way out of worrying about our financial stability and keeping our home. I have a wonderful job prospect at this time and I am very hopeful that I would join this family-oriented firm. (Fingers crossed).
I have read half of a book. And, I imagine, that it will take me quite a while longer to finish it and do a book blog review. In the meantime, for anybody who I made friends with on this blogging network and kept me on their reader, I wanted to reach out and say “thank you.” I may not be able to blog about books or entertainment for a while, but I need to use this blog to out pour my emotions and journal my thoughts.
Of late, I’ve had a tough time talking to God. I know that he is there, but it’s hard to feel him and hear him. I know that he has a plan for me and one day I will look back and be happy for all that he has provided for me.
I feel very alone right now. The twins are difficult teenagers that are very difficult to manage. They are so emotional and argumentative. For those of you who are experiencing the same thing (or havre i the past) you know how hard it is just to stay atop of them and make sure that they stay in line.
I’m going to use this platform to journal until the right novel comes along. I hope that you are there with me and stay tuned. (BTW… more soccer tomorrow! Cheers to the forever Soccer Mom!)