Wednesday, Aug 24, 2011

Needing to Electronically Journal Today… Just Sharing My Diary

Writing.

Writers.

Expression.

Letting the words escape from my head and make their way to paper, or in this case, the screen just seems to set me free. 

Less stress.

Less worry.

As a woman, at times it feels as though I have a spinning Rolodex in my mind. (For young people, that was what we used at work instead of v-cards.)  Thoughts about everything and nothing just taking their rounds in my mind.  Is this why writers write?  Or readers read?  To escape the myriad of continual thoughts running rampid amongst the mind?  For me, I believe that answer is “yes.”

All I need today is to get those words out of my mind.

Digital Dating.  

What is up with that?  I’m trying it.  I feel like an old Volkswagon bug trying to keep up on an Indy 500 course with the most finely tuned race cars circling right past me on the track.   I am officially feeling like an 80 year old woman in a room full of 25 year old men.  I just don’t know how to navigate the dating scene any more.   I’m truthfully in the prime of my life, but feel too old to be doing this.

I tried going to the bars.

Nightmare.

Let’s just leave it at that.

Work. 

Work is something to be so grateful for.  Isn’t it the greatest double-edge sword in your life?  I am in a stagnant stage of pure appreciation for the opportunity to work in today’s economy, yet definitely regretful that I continue to put in more hours than are healthy for me.  It gets in the way of everything… yoga class, dance class, spending more time with my children…. but, a total necessary requirement of existence.

And, there’s that.

The Children.  

The 14-year old female is one to be reckoned with, let me assure you.  And, I have two of them.  I want to enjoy them so much because I see that time has flown by us.  They will fly the coop sooner than I know it.  But the time that we have is often a time of negotiation, direction, and careful parenting.  Where’s the fun in that?  They spent all summer doing a hodge-podge of things… all without me.  Again, that four-letter word: work.

Entertainment.

I’m so happy that The Help was finally released onto the big screen.  I want to add it to my list of “things to do,” yet I know that it will end up a renter.  Bachelor Pad.. my guilty pleasure and escape.  I swear to you that watching it has a mind-numbing effect.  I literally am able to stop that Rolodex for the entire duration of that show.  Now, if only it could be on every other night after work.

Exercise.

I feel motivated when I leave the office, yet exhausted the moment that the heels come off.   I need to treat myself better… lose more weight.

Diet.

So, I bought a chicken salad for lunch today and it arrived without the chicken.  $7 for lettuce and dressing.  How sad is that?  I should have just settled for the Lean Cuisine and saved the dough.  But, the diet has been good to me.  My blood levels are awesome and my Diabetes is very much under control right now.  (Yeah for me… oh so proud).

Dating, again.

I have a date this weekend.  I’m nervous.  How do you ever know what to wear on first dates?  Really… I want to know.

Sleep.

I’m hoping to have some tonight because I shared my words with you today.

Good-night and thanks for reading my diary today.

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